I think I should just not go to prom.
So many situations are currently up in the air, and it’s too stressful. I don’t want to let anyone down, especially not my best friend. I really don’t think I deserve this.
I feel like everyone has a tiny piece of me; I don’t exclusively belong to anyone. I like that a lot. It’s not like I have bonding feelings or anything for that matter.
I seem to be my own island of advisory, and I am perfectly content with that.
My current fear is that feelings are going to spawn in my process of regenerating the wall. Had to kick it down to rebuild.
But in the past few months, I’ve emotionally invested myself in so many people, and I’ve learned that I’m truly capable of caring about people; I’ve come to terms that caring loads about people is a good thing because we can always give more.